I have been so preoccupied by my daily life, and scheduling of pain pills, and times that I can lay down on my vibrating mat, that I do not get to this spot to actually put down anything. I'm even having a hard time finding anything I really enjoy reading. Very unusual for me. But at the moment I am back in Neiderbopp and loving the feeling I a get as I read about love and joy.
I'm almost through Christmas shopping, and that feels very wonderful. Especially, because my Christmas budget is about exhausted. For the next few days I will be focusing all my attention on our Red Hat Cookie exchange, and getting ready for that.
I'm probably just going to ramble for awhile. I can't get to sleep, but I would like to, while the pain pills are still effective, but they also make me feel more alive and happy than I have felt for a long time. I'm still trying to decide how much I want to do in the line of baking , for Christmas this year. I usually try to over-do it, and then resent it. Maybe I will just go with carmel corn and assume all will be happy enough.
I am still very happy spending time with Gregory every week-day afternoon. He really does put joy in my heart. He is so much fun to be with, and to love so freely. Today he read to me from one of his new books, and I am so impressed that my little grandson can read. He is so good at doing his school work, and loves to show me things he has in his back pack every day.
Thankfully, the purple shawl I ordered for the gift exchange came today, and it is now wrapped and ready to go to the party, as well as the little individual boxed gifts for each Red Hat sister who attends on Saturday.
My bedroon is a mess with Christmas stuff, as yet unfinished, or partly finished, and Gregory's afghan is not finished yet. But, I am sure I will make it by Christmas. I do believe that Sunday and Monday I will put up my tree, and decorate my apartment in preparation for Christmas. Then, I will try to do a little Christmas reflecting every evening there-after as I look at the lighted tree and perhaps listen to Christmas music for a few minutes. Christmas comes too quickly after Thanksgiving for me to do much reflecting. Yet, I have the same amount of time to enjoy it as anyone else. My mind tends to stress instead of enjoy the time.
This is also the time of year I rethink my priorities, and set new goals for a brand new year. I am getting so close to 70 years old. It is hard to comprehend. But it is a fact.
